最近感受到别人给你压力的那种不快感，很不好受。
所以，我下定决心不要给别人那种我不喜欢的感觉。

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有时候，当你已经做不到，办不到，有心但无力，没办法做到
的时候，
然后希望别人可以帮你时
听到，感受到的，却只是负面的反应，
会是怎么样的一种感受？

我不喜欢这种感受
所以我也不要给人这种感受
万一我不小心给了，请让我知道，谢谢！
哈哈……
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如果有的选，我会放掉让你去做，因为我知道我现在的状况是心有余而力不足……
既然唯一的选择都行不通，我只好硬撑。
我承认，挺辛苦的。但我甘愿，我欢喜。
我不是不要把最好的交出来，
要知道，我的生活里不是只有那一样
我还要顾及其他的东西的
所以，最好的暂时还没找到一把对的钥匙来开启……

我承认，也知道我绝对不是最好的。（你应该会比我好）
我还有很多东西需要学习。
感谢你让我学习不少东西……
人生不都是这样，从错误中学习，从经验中学习吗？
要求完美，会让生活过得很苦……哈哈，不是吗？

晚安，好希望你会读到这极端写给你的文字，虽然我知道机会很渺茫……哈哈…………

假期又要过完了……

时间真的很会跑
两个星期的假期，眨眼间就剩一天
一天！！！
我的天……

功课，还没做
全部东西都还没做……
唉哟……
开学后一定不可以在这样，拖拖拖
发太多白日梦，浪费太多时间
做个用工努力“聪明”的读书人，好吗？
哈哈哈……

小提琴

偶然发现到那位“可爱”的老师真的开始把学生们学琴时的情景放上网，真的很“汗”～

把差不多所有的短片都看了一遍，发现到这位不知名的小弟弟拉的歌很好听。歌，原本就很好听，加上演奏的人技巧不错，出来的效果很好噢～

好久没有去老师那儿上课了（有两个月了吧？）

去了吉隆坡念书，回家的机会减少了好多好多……

好想念去老师那儿学琴的感觉……

不管在家怎么玩，还是觉得在那儿比较好听，可能是因为有老师的钢琴伴奏的关系吧！哈哈……

不见踪影
被BLOCK 了？
应该是吧！
哈哈，感觉真“好”……
:(

最后一次

我不算是一个痴情的人
但
在停止喜欢他前
请让我为他做些事

信心快回来……

我就是我
这句话很常见吧？

对呀， 我就是我呀。
世界上会有两个一样的人吗？
所以呀，做我自己就好了呀……
不要因为觉得别人比你好，所以就努力把自己变成向别人那样
不适合自己的，怎么变，只会让自己活得很辛苦。

信心，很重要。
别人好，自己也不差。


天呀，我不要再觉得自己比别人差很多很多了……
我是我，他是他
他有他的好，我有我的好，
只是方式不同罢了……

加油吧……

～感谢上天～

生命不可以重来

时间也不会回头

在我生命中陪我看，陪我走，陪我笑，陪我哭，陪我学的人好多~

虽然不是每一个都是我的好朋友，

有者甚至不能在我脑中占一个小小位子，

但是，我珍惜，也感谢，那些曾经的陪伴。

因为一个人的生活，好；

有人陪伴的生活，更好！

端午节快乐～

很久没有吃粽子了…… 整一年了吧？！哈哈……
很想念外婆还有婆婆的粽子……
嘻嘻，明天就有的吃了， 因为我要回怡保和安顺了！
想到这里肚子就饿了， 好想吃哦～
呵呵……

我可怜的部落格，被我遗忘了快一个月……

I had been in the "blurr blurr" mood these few days..

My parents had broken the world record for "flying my aeroplane" for 5 times in a week, for continuously 5 days...

And i were a bad girl this week.. haha..

So many things happened in this week..
haha.. actually not that many things happened, just one, very very special one...
haha...
i can't stop myself from thinking about that...
That's why I'm in the "haiz haiz" mood and a bit "down"...
haha...

My sister lost her phone last Sunday.
Immediately, my parents bought another phone for her...
In a 2 hours period, my sister lost her "old" phone(which was actually quite new) and then get another "new" phone.
Am i jealous?
not sure actually.. haha..
I started realising that i actually feel a little bit jealous when my father asked me about my feeling...
haha..
why ask me?
because... he had promised to buy me a new hand phone since form three, when i get my PMR result..
Failed to do so.
And i forgot about that..
Then when i get my SPM result, my father said want to buy me one new phone.
And till now, not yet.
Do i mind? sure la.. always fly my aeroplane and eat his word..
never mind, i forgive him, because he is my father.
haha...
Actually, i just want to have a better functioned mobile phone, not an expensive one. I just want a cyber shot... haha...
whatever...

I had made a promise to myself and i, too, failed to do so...
i want to donate some money to somebody who need it, just some money, but i haven't do so, since last year...
i am always worried that the money nay not be passed to those who need it, but get "eaten up" half way through.. haha...

ALSCO is planning to bring the children from two orphanage out to have fun on 9th of May, Saturday, and i wanted to join so badly.. haha.. Children from primary till secondary.. play with them, take care of them or just watch them? not sure.. haha... but i really want to join.. Hope that Lucas can keep his word and register for me.. haha..

Just read jie hui's blog yesterday.. missed all my secondary friends... haiz... i want to go back to form five... haha.. also read hui wen's blog.. and suddenly missed her too.. why har?
XUAN... miss you so so so much... wei yi jie hui siu shan yu xuan xing hui, when will be the next time these peoples gather in rainbow again?

唉哟……

aiyo....

怎么办？

haiz....

mamami A~~~~

Blurr...
我到底在想些什么呀？
什么东西啦……

刚刚和丽莹还有婉心还有天蔚出去了“一下”……
我承认是很好玩啦……
哈哈……
但是回来后就开始有一点down 了……
为什么呢？
不说不说，总之就是不很开心……
haiz....

My saturday...

Morning: went to karak with my dad and had "dim sum" there... Ate quite a lot, growing really fat, soon... haha...

afternoon: lunch in karak then went back to bentong... sleep(should be nap but a long one).. haha...

Evening: basketball, with wei yi, ah jian, naresh, ah pang, yeong kang, weng wei, and who else ark? quite a lot of people are playing with us today... why le? because hor, when we reach, there are already a lot of "little boy" playing basketball there.. then we want to play a game ma, so "terpaksa" play with them to uss the whole court.. haha.. and i was is ah jian's team, taking responsibility as "vase" because.. erm... i'm poor in playing basketball.. haha.. i only contributed to my team by trying to block others (from ji jem's team) from passing ball to the right court... haha.. funny.. i was guessing that those little boys will go back home ending up thinking of whose that poor big girl(or even jie jie) playing balls with us just now? haha... funny, and that's obviously me, the poor girl.. haha.. anyway, i did enjoy laughing around (in fact, IN )the court.. and sweating.. with the nice wind blowing and without the strong evening sunlight... haha...

Night: went to rainbow and had dinner with wei yi and jie hui.. three of us chatted for a while and suddenly ah pang came. Then he ordered food also. After a while, ah jian turns up also. Then, naresh, ah cheong, yeong kang, prince, ji jem and weng wei also come.. the small table for four end up being surrounded by 10 people... haha.. and ah cheong had a nice new hairstyle, really NEW and FASHION that hui yee said not a single person in bentong have this hairstyle.. haha.. he is not confident with his new hairstyle but i think it's cool, to have t spiderweb on your head... haha.. cool man, ah cheong...

then now, blogged until reach second day already still haven't stop.. going back to hostel afterward, most probably in the afternoon.. T.T have to face the "SUSAH" damn hard studies.. mama mia... no way no way.. T.T... be positive.. Li Ying, Woan Shing, Shareen, i'm going back! (oh sobs...)

P/S: i love twilight series... Good Bella! And how good if i have somebody loving me like Edward loving Bella.. haha...

ahaha... goodness...

Anne Chang => Dirty (Mandarin)
Anne Chin => Keep Quiet (Mandarin)
Faye Chen => Dusty (Mandarin)
Carl Cheng => Buttock (Hokkien)
Monica Cheng => Touching your buttocks (Hokkien)
Lucy Leow => You are dead (Hokkien)
Jane Tan => Frying eggs (Mandarin)
Suzie Leow => Lose till death (Hokkien)
Henry Mah => Hate your mum (Mandarin)
Corrine Tai => Poor fellow (Hokkien)
Paul Chan => Bankrupt (Mandarin)
Nelson Tan => Bird laying eggs (Mandarin)
Leslie Tong => Rubbish Bin (Mandarin)
Carmen Teng => Leg hair long (Hokkien)
Connie Mah => Call your mother (Cantonese)
Danny See => Squeeze you to death (Hokkien)
Rosie Teng => Screws and nails (Hokkien)
Pete Tsai => Nose droppings (Hokkien)
Macy Koh => Never die before (Cantonese)

我回到家了~

Happy Good Friday!!!

Just finished celebrating Lavina's birthday on five something...

we went to KIM GARY to celebrate for her, and 10 of us, paid for our own food except lavina...we paid for her! see, we're so kind.... haha.. because she is the birthday "po" ma, so we treat her lo... and kah yan help us to buy a chocolate cake too... nice nice...

HAPPY BIRTHDAY, LAVINA!!! (though i know you din read my blog...haha...)

Lavina, thanks for being so kind, "unselfish" and always being willing to teach me whenever i stupidly dun understand what every teacher taught us.. haha...

想念联晨

想念联晨，想念吉他，想念那一段我们一起学吉他的日子……
Yer……
光阴一去不复返……
联晨……

JPA interview 2009

AIYO...
GROUP DISCUSSION TITLE:
~ PATIENT FRIENDLY HOSPITAL
~ DRUG ADDICTS

OH MY GOODNESS...

The 5 days visit to hospital...

Just finished the "attachment" to lipis hospital... It is no doubt a good experience for me...
First time get so close to the life of doctors and nurses...

First Day:
My group of three people were placed in the "Pesakit Luar" department. Then we were sent into Dr Nantha's room. First of all, he asked us, "why do you all want to be a doctor? " . haha.. then all kinds of answer came out from our mouth.. haha... After that, we were divided. I went to room6, "bilik rawatan" while yee chin and maria each went to a doctor's room. Nurses take blood samples from patients in this room. Patients in patients out.. Highlight: A baby was sent in to take his/ her blood for blood test. The nurse poked a needle into the small hand, and the small baby started crying with a small voice. Blood flew out from the small needle on the small hand, and the nurse collected the blood while holding the struggling baby's hand tightly. Oh my.. so pitiful...
Then i exchanged with yee chin and entered Dr Nantha's room. Sitting beside(and behind) the doctor, i observed how the doctor treat his patients. And i did saw him scolding a diabetes patient for not taking care of his health and blood glucose level. He explained to me that he patient only come for MC, every time the blood glucose level is high, no improvement at all... haha...
Then I went to another doctor's room and continue observing doctors.. haha.. Not handsome one... haha...
During the on call period, a primary school boy was sent into emergency room for a broken leg. The medical assistant tried to fixed the broken bones back by pressing on the bone.. Sweat.. The little boy screamed and screamed, cried and cried, kicked and hit people..

then i went home(tumpang in my friend's house).... still got second day and third..........
so long o, lazy to write le...
haha..upload later, when i feel like doing so.. haha...

Exercise? lack of it...

My legs and arms' muscle are hurting me... Painful man....

Yesterday i went to have a basketball game with hui yee, jie hui, jian pang, ah jian, ah leong, yeong hong, ah pong and ah cheong... Played for about two hours (one and half hour i think)..

Although i am the one with "poorest basketball skill", but i still did ran for the ball throughout the game..

And i think i had been laughing throughout the game too.. haha... when i saw them chasing after a ball, or "fighting" for the ball, i really feel so so so funny.. haha... that's why i laughed... haha...

I think my last play of basketball before yesterday is a few years ago.. haha.. It's funny that i had even joined the school basketball team to participate in MSSM Bentong before. haha... Of course, i am the one who sat on the chair beside the court throughout the game.. haha... so pitiful man.... but it was all a few years ago, dun think about it anymore.. ahaha....

A sudden play of basketball(or should i say "doing exercise") make my muscles pain... haha.. And i hurt my last finger of my left hand, with the basketball ji jem supplied.. everything is painful.. haha.... so, the conclusion is : I AM LACK OF EXERCISE... i should exercise more, for the sake of my health and my body size... ahahax...

oh ya, forgot to mention that i had tomyam steamboat yesterday night, with the same gang. I were bloated after the meal... (lost weight after exercising and gained after meal.. haha...)